hey! new alice in chains album!

jerry misses layne. he's weeping until he dies, as awesome as he is. he is awesome, tho'. there is fullfrontal grief saturated in this album. that's why it's good, cause otherwise its just a-o-kay modern metal.

i like it!


i like:
time
to start living
like just
before
we died.

i miss home. and i knowknowknow i hated it while i was there. this. is. me.


i'm tiredtiredtired of this!! workwork. not so interesting. HEY a day off! that's about it. sleeping, dreaming, working. this city is a fucking petri dish! of disease: jesus the tb and hiv and diabetes and MR/disability/deconditionedobesitynursinghomenothingness. and: as per the parlance of mah program: lord the petri dish of psychosocial pathology. no one had a chance out here. and i thought nola was the land of suffering. what a way to live, sprouting from such infertile land. i tell myself "lord what a place to learn and from which to be influenced..." but there's nothing to change out here. change is not here, this place bleeds of money, drinks of money, international greed vs. international disparity. because, only foolish east coast leftwingers believe in the indisputable noble savageness of the impoverished. cause, just as the enron business man wants to shit on your grave if that makes him rich, so does the poor man (want to shit on your grave, if that makes him rich). richrichrich. sicksicksick.


H1N1: funny observation, based on aside conversation during rounds with super awesome guru chairman of my program (superawesome HIV badass, family medicine too!!! super soft demeanor, ridiculous fund of knowledge, dripping compassion) who happens to be attending ahora mismo:

this is the fucking newyorker:

the flu!!!!! holy shit!!! guv-ment- why aren't you creating a cure/vaccine for us hardworking citizenry!!!!
(government makes vaccine, does research, determines best way to defend against the viral onslaught of virus-that-is-no-more-important-than-normal-flu)
the flushot!!! holy shit!!! you can't make me take that poison, even if i am a healthworker!! i don't wanna inject that, i don't trust you!!!
(if said government didn't make vaccine)
holy shit!! make a vaccine!!! goverment sucks, why won't you help us, we need vaccines and cures and television commercials tellings us about pigs and flus and handwashing!!!


whew!

sleep.

i miss you!!!!!!!!